I,m bad

Just finished taken medicine, still cannot sleep. All my muscle still very pain, already apply a lot of medic on it. last week go and see doctor, doctor say i,m get stressed.he ask me what i,m working as?i say i,m just a normal mechanic, so he ask me rest more.But honestly working is giving me a lot of pressure.But my self,i also not sure why so stressed?is it i,m thinking too much. my career or her?

last few days mummy call me and ask me what happen to me. Sorry mummy that i put temper on you again, but i,m really don wanna let you worry me so much. i hope you understand me. But yesterday i already told uncle what my planning and my decision so hope you don worry so much. every time i talk with you in the phone you look like not understanding me but i know i,m bad. sorry mummy hope you will forgive me.i hope coming this mothers days i can come back to accompany you, and go for a family dinner. i,m really feel bad sorry mummy.


(tired medicine start working jor sleepy)

原来这世上最痛心的...不是失恋，而是...

世上最痛心的...不是失恋，而是明明很在乎，明明很心痛，却要装作无所谓。

Sorry

its time to sleep, but cant sleep, once i closed my eyes your face will be coming out in my frame.

i really cry until very tired, but anyway i just can say the way u choose i just respected you.

Sorry i really feel regret Sorry that i loved you Sorry that i cant forgive my self Sorry that i really fall in love to you

Sorry i really feel regret,
Sorry that i loved you,
Sorry that i cant forgive my self,
Sorry that i really fall in love to you.

what should i do.

today finally saw my cousin sister come back, she is fine. i,m happy to see her come back.

today my work is sucks.but at the end very funny things happen got some body buy KFC for me b4 going back home. but a bad news is the cayenne coolant is leaking. so sucks. haih .... eat KFC then must continue to repair the cayenne...


OK final decision.

leave or stay ?
over sea alone or?

what a bad day.

To day i was feeling very tired, fearless and down.

1st its my working place like a pressure cooker, i don know how long i still can take the pressure. i,m lost.



2nd is my cousin sister is missing and our whole family is very worried and don1t
know where she go now ... ???

i know GOD u will protect them love them.

For me i,m lost now, i don want to hurt anyone especially my family & the person that who i love.
i just hope that i can get all the wealth and healthy for them.
i wanna cry out, but its hard to cry out now. T_T