11 months of the suffered

11 months I and my brothers suffered. What a big mistake I make in my life.
We are young , we are not lazy, we work hard, at the end what we get? Suffered ? Messed up own life? Life is sucks? I can't stand anymore. I wanna cry but I can't cry out. But tonite finally I cried, I hv told my secret to my beloved. Feel better, and I realize that alot of things happens in past few months. But we don runaway we face it. Solve it. This is life.

And I'm so sorry to my beloved one I promise your things I temporary I can't make it for you. But I promise I will make it for you. And I feel very comfort when I'm together wit you. I can forget everything's. All my stress my pressure are gone. I don know I can't stand how long. I just hope you to support me. Care me. Warming me. But you are the second gals to make me happy inny life. I'm happy that you come into my life. I hope I can take care of you in my entire life. I love you MST.

Having a peace silent night and siting in front of the balcony.